Present – The Missing Handbook

Loneliness

I have been having a hard time lately. My sense of loss has not diminished and my loneliness is monumental. In the days and weeks ahead I have a lot of decisions to make regarding my health and my future. I DO NOT feel comfortable nor confident making them alone. It seems un-natural. We talkedContinue reading “Loneliness”

Today I Choose….

To ignore grief To live healthier To look ahead To celebrate what was, what is, and what will be To see beyond differences To cherish my immediate and extended family To be grateful To put aside petty grievances To take joy from little successes To be bold, brave and kind. To be bold, brave andContinue reading “Today I Choose….”

90 Lbs of Chocolate Love

I have lived very few years without a dog in my life. As an adult, it all began with a hand me down dog from my brother…a bat shit crazy cockerpoo. That dog didn’t last long after he took a chunk out of our neighbor’s leg and then threatened the pastor that had just baptizedContinue reading “90 Lbs of Chocolate Love”

Changing Habits

It was “our” day. Once we opened the restaurant Sunday was the only day we closed…so we could do anything we wanted. Our conversations usually began with W saying, “What do you want to do today?” My response was always, “Whatever you want!” I was never much help. But being foodies, we always began withContinue reading “Changing Habits”

The (very) Important Book

I’ll get it out of the way right now. I am an organized person. A bit on the obsessive/compulsive side. Always have been. About five years ago, I started wondering what would W do if something happened to me and I was unable to let him know where all the important stuff is located. ThenContinue reading “The (very) Important Book”

Fa la la la blah

My Christmas decorating is complete! Yeah! I even have the 4 foot lighted tree-in-a-box in the attic. It’s a no go for me. The wreath is it. I guess it is a metaphor for how I am feeing these days. This will be my second Christmas without W. The outer pain/agony has been replaced withContinue reading “Fa la la la blah”